Letting love in can feel scary.

Letting love in can feel scary.
It requires a vulnerability that can feel unsafe.

Because once upon a time when you were the most vulnerable and open to love, you got hurt.

And that wound remains unhealed to this day.

It left a scar, a somatic imprint that created deeply ingrained protective mechanisms, belief systems, stories and patterns that can create a feeling of being stuck.

Stuck in patterns, often perceived as self-sabotage. This can cause great confusion.

Often leading to shaming yourself, beating yourself up and wondering what is wrong with you, why do you keep doing this, why do you keep attracting the same person, why does this keep happening…

But there’s nothing wrong with you and there never has been.

This is the intelligence of your primal being, when we feel unsafe, we protect, this is natural, divine, intelligence.

Until the core wound is healed and integrated you may find that you continue to play out similar experiences in your present life.

You may experience yourself getting triggered in the present because something in your present is reminding you of this somatic imprint, of this wound, of this past experience.

This often isn’t conscious and is all happening in the subconscious which is why there is such confusion.

But these triggers are bringing it to the surface…

Offering you the opportunity to heal and call this part of you home, this part of you that became fragmented in this past experience.

Recently, I connected with a part of myself that was holding onto the story that letting love in, letting someone into my heart will only lead to hurt, to being let down, and therefore is not safe.

This belief, this story, was developed long ago, in childhood, infancy and potentially even passed down through the generations and/or past lives.

This story runs deep.
I can feel the depth of this pain in my being.

I can feel the layers and layers of pain that have been held in my being from experiencing this again and again throughout this lifetime.

As I allow myself to feel this pain and hold these parts of myself with deep compassion, they begin to heal and integrate.

And this healing allows me to soften and open.

Open to love. To let love in.
And this transforms my relationships.

With Myself. With my partner. My son. My family. My friends. My Community. My Clients. Past Relationships. And ALL Of Humanity.

The wound that created the belief that letting love in (people in) leads to being hurt and let down created a hardening, a pushing people away and never letting anyone close enough to really see me and love me kept me “safe” but it also created more pain as I isolated myself and shut myself off from love.

In a way this served me and in a way this led to further pain and suffering.

When we come to this realisation, we have a choice.

Do I continue to protect myself by pushing away love, or do I choose to do the deeper healing and integrative work that will allow me to cultivate inner safety and security so I can open to love…

What do you choose?

Remember… You have the power to choose in every moment but what may be preventing you from choosing that which you desire and falling into old patterns is the somatic imprint and inner children that need to be loved, nurtured and supported to integrate and return to wholeness.

This can take time.

Be patient, be present and be compassionate as you navigate these deep layers of your being.

Ask for support and allow yourself to be held and supported by someone who is capable of holding this deep space. This is essential.

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