Sisterhood Wounds
Sisterhood wounds run deep for so many of us women, so much hurt from past relationships with our sisters that is still impacting our lives today.
Amberlee and I held a call on this inside the becoming masterclass earlier this week and it was so incredibly powerful and deeply touched my heart.
I shared my own experiences around sisterhood wounds and where they stem from
Some of you may know, I have 5 biological sisters, growing up in a household with so many girls was not easy, add on the trauma and hurt we were all holding without the tools to navigate and emotionally regulate… well it was a lot.
No one at fault, just a whole lotta hurt without the awareness or knowing how to move through it, how to communicate it and how to express our needs.
I was very close to one of my sisters and yearned for her connection butt she was unable to meet me, unaware how impactful her actions were and this led to deep wounds and the closing of my heart as well as long term patterns that repeated themselves in friendships for many years.
Anytime there was a boy in her life, I was forgotten about, they were more important and took all of her time and attention.
When they were no longer in her life, I was important again…
I began to feel used and abused and deeply bruised.
I felt as if she only came to me when she wanted something… And I felt taken advantage of again and again, like I meant nothing to her and was only valuable when I had something she wanted.
I began experiencing this in many of my relationships again and again
And more and more It felt unsafe to open my heart to anyone and overtime I closed my heart more and more.
This affected all my relationships for years!!!
About 18 months ago I became profoundly aware of how much I was keeping everyone at a safe distance and how isolating and lonely that felt.
I began to peel back the layers, one by one, slowly re-opening my heart, letting love in again.
This has been incredibly confronting and deeply vulnerable and tender,
I really had to take it at my own pace, it was not something to rush through, I needed slowness, gentleness and compassion.
In one particular session with one of my mentors, I felt the hard shell of armour crack open and inside was my raw, throbbing and deeply tender heart beating.
I cried, I felt the pain so deeply and was so grateful to be held by such a kindred spirit, a sister. Victoria Bauman, I thank you with all my heart.
And the journey continued…
Last year, I connected with Amberlee inside a mastermind called Lead With Love…The synchronicities, absolutely unreal.
Lead With Love!!!
Connecting with a sister like Amberlee has been so deeply healing, what a blessing and an honour to journey and co-create with this wonderful being <3
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